So, I’ve been spending a lot of time alone lately. Partially of my own choice, partially cause my “friends” aren’t that into hanging with me. I’ve been struggling so I would say for sure, I am not the person I have been…
I’m trying to connect with God and I want to be able to meet with him. I find it hard right now to see the calm amidst the storm right now. There is not one particular thing that has happened to make me feel like this. It is Life. and everything seeming to be sitting there at once. I feel betrayed, unworthy, unloved and disconnected, with people and God.
The post I reblogged prior to this said ” pray hardest when it is hardest to pray” This is what I know I need to do, but I struggle so hard to do it.. Kind of like when Paul said the things I want to do I don’t and the things I don’t want to do, I find myself doing.
I keep struggling with what I know and what I feel… because I get caught up on how I feel so much, if I feel hurt it affects me, when i feel lonely I have a hard time…